BORiiNG.

by Abby -- filed under: Life, Rant

So there's no school for the next two days... and i'm unbeliievably BORED. All i've done so far is mess around on the computer.. haha?

I think honestly if i really felt the desire to i could make more of a effort and socialize and make plans/party or whatever more but it's so painfully... unentertaining? Honestly i'm probably gonna end up a hermit at this rate.. i hope i'm going through a phase, i'm starting to worry myself... that's not too weird is it?

UGH. My own brain is so damn confusing sometimes...
School has seriously been getting on my nerves. Ever since it started it feels as if it's neverending, at least not till June. Depressing thoughts... must think happy!

Whatever. I'm also seriously sick of the "social scene" i guess you could call it also. Im only in eighth grade but people are already starting to date and hook up(more like makeout?) which I personally think is quite sickening. I mean your friggin thirteen! The most you do is TELL everyone your in a relationship with someone.. and maybe kiss at a party once or twice but other than that it's just boring same old crap. Maybe i'm bitter(already?) or jealous(lammme!) but I just think it's completely ridiculous.

But maybe it's like a confidence booster.. The fact that some guy actually likes you enough to tell you/ask you out. By the time i get to college i can already predict i'll have a nonexistent love life... *sigh*.

But then again that's just me wallowing in self pity.. whatever

Eventually i'll add something on here in case someone actually still checks/stumbles upon this and wants to comment... when i get around to it. :)

posted 01 Oct 2008 -- comments 0

Hearts?

by Abby -- filed under: Blog, Life, Thoughts

I just got an odd urge to blog? Hm.

So anyway today in school my social studies teacher happened to ask a girl who sat near me.. "Why do girls always doodle hearts?" and that got me thinking.. why do we?

I mean I am always drawing them all over the place.. why? Lately i've gotten obsessed with romance stories (pathetic. yes. satisfying? very.) and so i guess i'm in that kinda mood to dream... anyway is it because we all want a guy? When i think about the future i cannot possibly imagine what really loving someone would be like, sadly i can imagine never having a boyfriend.. or getting married... how depressing? I'm only 13 but the idea of love has already been planted, and so are the ideas about beauty.

I mean one of the best things i love about romance stories is how everyone is handsome how everyone is drop dead gorgeous. But what about the other oh... 99% of people? What happens to them? Because no matter what mum says i know that i am not attractive, honestly how gullible am i?

My mind keeps skipping from thought to thought.. one thing that is sticking out is that.. what would happen if i died? This isn't a book! or a movie or anything! I won't know what happens.... because i'll be dead and nobody knows what happens when your dead! Just the idea of death fills me with dread/anxiety/panic. I am not even making sense.. ohwell not like anybody comes to this site anymore.. Anyway.

I am sick of school sick of people in general. Nobody knows who I am(and yes I know i'm acting like every other teenager.. ) but what i want is the ideal.. a best friend who i can tell anything to.. thats all, and even though i adore the idea of popularity, as vain as that sounds, i still want a confidant more than anything else. Then again nobody in my school really has that relationship all the stories relay. I don't care if the best friend was female or male.. one of both would be just amazing... best friends tiill the end...
Perhaps it's too early. Perhaps it's too late.

In social terms, school has been a bloody nightmare. Damn conflict.

posted 26 Sep 2008 -- comments 0

Lazy Summer Days

by Abby -- filed under: Blog, Life

Sorry for abandoning the site for like... almost the entire summer so far... wassat

I have been just way too lazy.

Basically this was my entire day until today:
Wake up -- 1:00 PM!
Shower -- Immediately Afterwards.
Breakfast/Lunch (BRUNCH!)-- A little bit after that (By now its 2 PM)
TV WATCHINGG >>> Till like 5 PM

Than my parents come home and make me do stuff.. But yeah. The Laziest Summer Everrr.

However now my mom signed me up for this swim class that starts at like 2 that is like 45 minutes. I am way too lazy for thattt. I feel like i'm drowning whenever I do it.. PLUS my mom signed me up with a bunch of midget-y like 5th graders.. I am (as you all should know) going into 8th grade and I am pretty tall so I look GIGANTICC. Although I have to say they aree good swimmers.. but that does make it all the more pathetic. laughing

The only thing that's keeping me going is shopping & the thought of vacation at the end of August. In the end of August my family goes on vacation for a week or two. This year we're going for one week to either the Hamptons or maybe Jamaica or somewhere in the Caribbean.

I absolutely adore shopping. I went on this huggee shopping spree yesterday with my mom and it was fab ! All the stores are having the summer clearance sales now.. I'm trying to convince my mom that all the money I spent was an investment and that we are saving tons of money. I ended up spending over $250.. But really it was worth it laughing

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It's about 1 AM (in the morning!) right now.. and I am still awake. I usually stay awake till about 2 AM. I know bad sleeping habits. But my parents get on me for my horrible habits.. but I am just so paranoid I can't sleep. I have this weird fear of dying. But it especially is clear at night. Maybe it's because I do basically nothing during the day so i'm not getting tired enough? But mostly I'm scared that sometime at night someone will break in or something and totally kill me. Its completely ridiculous.. but my house doesn't have an alarm system... hmm.

Anyway on that paranoid note I think i'll go try and sleep... Night!

posted 29 Jul 2008 -- comments 0

Goals & Accomplishments

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So i'm not quite sure what that's for? Is it for the actual comments? Or is it settings or something for the comments? Or is it the actual comments section which i'm missing? I mean I really need this fixed... So can somebody check their own cutenews folder and tell me how theirs is? If you could that would be great!

Just email it to "queenie2251688@aim.com" smile

I really want this to be fixed soon especially since i'm gonna be updating a lot this summer and will want your input's !

Any Comments/Questions/Inquiries send to queenie2251688@aim.com

posted 07 Jul 2008 -- comments 0

Tennis begins with Love...

by Abby -- filed under: Blog, Site Updates, Life, Camp

Okay so for the rest of the week I won't be able to update because im in a tennis camp for this week. So yeah.

The camp goes from 9AM-4PM so i'm pretty busy. The sucky part is that its outdoors and now the weather is SUPERR sunny and hot so I need to bring like 3 water bottles and feel like im gonna get a heatstroke. Today was the first day, and I got sunburnt already. angry

So now my face is kind of this pinkish blotchy mess. It was actually really red before but I stuck my head in milk (desperate measures.) in the pursuit of losing my lobsterness.

I also have this random blister on my right thumb from the stupid tennis raquet(racket?). I am reeaally bad at it laughing

I have the most trouble with overhead serves, I just cannot get it into the little diaganol box and over the net. Hopefully in the next few days i'll get the hang of it...

After my camp ends, I hope to really get crackinn and really update the site a lot.

Goallist:
- 5 New Blends
- 4 Banners
- New Aim Profiles
- 3 New Weblayouts
- New Layout for Site
- 15 New Icons
- 2 New Neopets Guild Layouts
- 3 New Story Synopsis's
- 2 New Tutorials

And.. Yeeah!

P.S. I think something's wrong with the Cutenews comments options? I dunno I'll try and find a replacement later temporarily and perhaps try to fix it.

posted 01 Jul 2008 -- comments 0

My Pathetic Life & You

by Abby -- filed under: Blog, Site Updates, Life

Okay so It has suddenly occured to me that.. perhaps you all are not as interested in the news of my life or about people you have never met and most likely will never meet.. so from now on I am definitely gonna try to make my posts more interesting

I cannot wait for summer! My parents are sending me to this tennis camp with one of my close friends and it is gonna be amazing! I've never been there but its a camp sponsored by USTA (United States Tennis Association). It's gonna be SUCH a relief to be there instead of school, but the only thing is that my mom says I HAVE to get an A on my Math final to go (Everyones obsessing over finals!).

BTW does anybody know how to show archives in cutenews? I revamped the template

By the way, since the end of school is coming closer and so are FINALS(beginning from next Friday) the site won't be getting any updates until June 26th. This isn't exactly a hiatus, miniature one i guess.